Emptiness

All I feel is emptiness
in body,mind and soul.
Nothing possibly could change,
repair me,make me whole.

They say this pain will lessen,
that in time I will find peace,
that these mighty waves of anguish
will someday lighten,cease.

But now their words don't soothe me.
My mind is screaming so.
I can't see reason,meaning.
My bleeding heart cries,"No!"

My life just seems a burden
filled with tragedy and loss
and I cannot make the effort
or pay the price it costs.

They say this pain will lessen.
They talk to me of peace.
But this darkness is so heavy,
my only hope-release.

Will this emptiness devour me?
Existence feels so bleak.
To give my life new meaning,
I know not what to seek.

Source:Centry,GB.Stars in the deepest night (p.18)