over the years

 

Sixteen Years

 

Samar's Birthday

Another Year

August Pain

And so again, August is here

without you, daughter dear

I hate it when it comes

as I hear September’s drums. 

I stay all month in intense pain

despite the years, it doesn’t wane.

Though my pain is throughout the year

August’s is the most severe

Apprehensively waiting for the day

When you unexpectedly went away

Many years passed since you were gone

But the vivid memory is clear as the sun

August pain will never go

If anything, with the years it will grow.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2018, Copyright©

Remember Me

Memory Lane

As I walk through memory lane,

I stumble over my joy and pain

Reminiscing on those beautiful days

when I was blessed in many ways,

Mostly when I had you around,

with your siblings safe and sound.

I also recall the day you were gone,

each horrible moment, one by one.

The years piled up since that day

when God decided to take you away.

Another anniversary is coming again,

precious daughter, I am dreading the pain.

Your absence will continue to break my heart

Until we meet again and never part.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2017, Copyright©

Author of 

Summer Rays: Solace for Bereaved Parents 

Longing for Summer: A Season of Grief

Samar's Birthday

Samar's Birthday

Your Visit

You knew that your siblings had gone

Wanted me to know, there remained one

You felt the misery I was in,

Tapped my shoulder and raised my chin

Although I’ll try to describe

Your embrace and the associated vibe

I am sure I will definitely fail

And my words will not prevail

To portray the feeling I had

And how I was extremely glad

My blood started rushing through

The moment I dreamt of you

“I came from heaven all the way

To comfort you during this short stay,

Let you know that I care

And of your suffering I am aware

Your separation from us brings you pain

This happens to you time and again

Mother, now, it is time for me to go

But, I am always with you, that you know”

I felt so different when I woke up

It was a trance that shook me up.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2016, Copyright©

Author of Summer Rays: Solace for Bereaved Parents

New Year

Here comes another year

Without you, daughter, dear.

I don’t look forward to a new-year

Though with each one you are here.

I am counting one by one

Since the year you had gone.

Years started to pileup,

And still more lineup.

As I turn the calendar page by page

With beautiful memories, I engage

 In my heart and mind you are alive

Without it, I can’t another year survive.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2016, Copyright©

Author of Summer Rays: Solace for Bereaved Parents

Your Presence

I felt your presence in my dream

It was so real. I was about to scream.

Although I didn’t see you at all

I heard your voice calming my soul.

Felt your loving embrace and

Your kisses all over my face.

  

You felt the heaviness in my chest,

After your siblings travelled and left.

You knew the sadness I was in

And the longing that penetrates my skin

Dear daughter, don’t leave me and go

The Lord will allow you time, I know.

Tell Him, “My mother’s broken heart

Weakens when she and my siblings part

  

Ask the Lord to prolong your stay

Not only in a dream but all day.”

“Mother, separation causes you pain

But be sure you would see them again.

For now I have to say goodbye

And back to my world fly.

I promise you that I will visit you soon

During the night, morning or noon.

We love you mother that you know

No matter where we are or places we go”.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2015, Copyright©

Author of Summer Rays: Solace for Bereaved Parents

Excepts from I'm Calling You

Excerpts from "Your Sister is Here"

Enjoy Your Children

Appreciate happiness

when it knocks at your door

since you would not know

what life has for you in store.

Take pleasure

in your children as they grow

Treasure every moment,

as one day they might go.

Don’t complain that they did

this or that, and

they don’t have time for you

but with their friends chat.

Don’t take it for granted that

they will be there as long as you live

God might decide to take,

as He decides to give

Listen to a bereaved mother,

who wished to have died

before she witnessed the day

she buried her own child.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2015, Copyright©
Author, Summer Rays-Solace for Bereaved Parents

My Address Book

I need to have another look

At my address book

Delete names of those gone

Out of my life, Dear one

Add others who I met

And my grief accept,

Came into my life, stood by my side,

Did not force my tears to hide.

Sadness will overwhelm my heart

As my address book will lose a part.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2015, Copyright©
Author, Summer Rays-Solace for Bereaved Parents

Celebrate My Birthday Cont...

Celebrate My Birthday

You Are Not The Only One

You are not the only one suffering from loss

Or the first grieving person I came across

Remember that we have issues of our own,

Others had losses. You are not alone.

How could she make such a comment?

Was every word truly meant?

Grief is not a competition. Why compare?

Her painful words were so unfair.

  

Of my pain and loss, I will no more speak

I realize that it makes some freak.

I wish she never made this remark

On my lonely path I will embark.

Randah R. Hamadeh, 2015, Copyright©
Author, Summer Rays-Solace for Bereaved Parents