Death Anniversary Day

I want to celebrate your life today,
Your death anniversary day,

With white lilies, and roses everywhere
And incense scent filling the air.

I will spend some time in your bedroom
And spray it with your favorite perfume,

Remembering the chats and laughs we had
Reliving memories; the happy and sad

I will view your things and recall
The stories behind them all

And listen to your music collection as well
Recalling the comments you used to tell.

I will gaze at your picture frame
Hear your beautiful voice calling my name

Telling me, “Five years have passed, Mother
Since fate separated us from each other

Your feelings are still very raw
You didn’t forget for a moment, I know.

You remember this day with great pain
Reminiscing the events again and again.

Recalling the worst day in your life
Is like stabbing your heart with a knife

The unexpected phone call and what followed
And the hard facts that you after swallowed,

The flashback of this traumatic event,
Your helplessness and inability to prevent,

Will haunt you as long as you live
As moments of that day you always relive.

Yet, despite your pain, you kept my legacy going
Honoring my name and keeping it glowing

Thank you Beloved Mother, for keeping me alive
God bless you, and help you continue to survive.”


Randah R. Hamadeh, Copyright©2011
Written in loving memory of my daughter
Samar Ahmed Al Ansari (4/4/1988-4/9/2006)